Okay, I really am still here. Sometimes I question if I am anywhere though because I feel like I am in a hundred places at once which means I am nowhere, know what I mean? Since my husband lost his job my life has been completely turned upside down. Not only am I continuing all my mom jobs, my YW calling and my photography business, but I feel like I was suddenly hired full time as my husband’s secretary…which I guess I am as he has decided–we have decided on a leap of faith–to start up his new business which was already in the works when he lost his job. Now I am acting as a realtor as we need to sell our house because without his income we can’t stay in it. Nevertheless I don’t know that I have ever been this stressed out ever! I try to take time for myself but it’s so hard, I don’t even get things done that I need to every day. I won’t even begin to mention how food has played into this. I seriously sat down last night and said to my husband I think that I have a serious eating problem….it’s like the only stable and happy part about my life right now is that I can make a batch of cookies and eat them (well most of them). I don’t mean that I am unhappy, but I do mean that eating cookies makes me happy right now!! I have been pigging out and this is bad as we are trying to conserve cost of food. So I eat tons of the cheap stuff like crackers and potatoes and all those starches….oh I don’t even know how much I have gained….just that my jeans won’t button anymore and I had to pull out the fat clothes. Here I am supposed to be a fit sister, and I am failing miserably. I am so ashamed that I am caving over something that is supposed to be a good thing for our family–or at least we hope it to be.
So….enough venting….I am starting back on a somewhat restricted eating plan giving myself some leeway if I absolutely must eat cookies. If this flippin’ rain would clear up I could go jogging, but for now I sit on the bike infront of the TV…sometimes.
I wanted to share a nice food item I discovered awhile back and it has been helping my sweet tooth as I am trying to get out of this funk. They are called Torani syrups and they come in all flavors and are sugar free. Have any of you tried these? I may have posted about these before. But you can put them in milk, yogurt, on cereal and they are great. I make a mean tasting Raspberry lemonade using Crystal light lemonade and the raspberry syrup. They are a little spendy but all you need is a teaspoon or two. I have chocolate, caramel, irish creme, and raspberry. They are near the coffee at the grocery store (I guess people use them in coffee) I highly recommend them 
Have a great day! I’m workin on it
WOW! You really have some stress in your life and I can relate with stress eating. I am so sorry that it is such a strugle, but you can make it through this. I think it is important to focus on your emotional health during a stressful time and make sure you are finding ways to be happy. Too bad food is often times the way we get happy. I struggle with this and it is not easy. You’re not a lone and we are cheering for you! Best of Luck!
Rebecca
Courtney,
Wow, you are going through a lot right now. When i read your post my heart just felt for you. My husband was out of work for 3 years and as Rachel can attest to, it was a very difficult time for us. You can get through this and remember we are here for you. You can vent all you want on fit sister!